The first thing you need to bare in mind is that Allah is the most forgiving and he is capable of forgiving any sin as long as repentance was a sincere one:
Truly, Allah loves those who turn unto Him in repentance and loves
those who purify themselves. [Quran, 2:222]
Although sincere repentance may cause your sins to be forgiven, it isn't an easy task ...
No one can really answer your question except Allah, then you. This is a test, but here is how you can try to figure out the cause. It is a test to all, believers and non-believers alike. Tests and tribulations are what distinguishes between one who is sincere and one who is lying.
The Prophet said in this long hadith (only partially quoted):
تعرض الفتن على ...
Life is a continuous struggle, you are on the correct path, you certainly know it .. but you need more weapons to empower you in that struggle.
Several points to answer your long question:
Tawbaa will be accepted by Allah even if the same sin is repeated, as long as you are :
Sorry of what you have done
Have stopped, and Cut any current ...
What you did is extremely bad but Allah is a lord that has Mercy on his servant and forgive them, try to pray to Allah and ask for his forgiveness and don't that it as a joke because by Allah what you did is nothing but zinna.
In addition don't leave that your man if possible, marry him as soon as possible so that Allah may have mercy on both of you and ...
I wish you would be better soon but bro everything will pass soon and somehow you will forget those bad things and I wish this period of time pass quickly and don't effect on you, There's no doubt that the best Suruh to remove your depression is Suruh Yusuf what a wonderful Suruh and I wich you will understand the lessons from this Suruh and ...
I'll try to answer your question but it will be in an indirect way.
Below is a famous Hadith:
Hanzala Usayyidi, who was amongst the scribes of Allah's Messenger (ﷺ). reported:
I met Abu Bakr. He said: Who are you? He (Hanzala) said: Hanzala has turned to be a hypocrite. He (Abu Bakr) said: Hallowed be Allah, what are you saying? Thereupon he said: ...
If you do not have conviction that all the essentials of islam are true, then that makes you a kafir. The essentials include at the very least that Allah is the only god there has ever been, that Muhammad is his messenger and everything he said is true (note: this does not mean that one has to have conviction into all ahadith being true to be Muslim because ...