I've been a victim of extremely bad wasawis about Nabi Pak (SAW) & Allah. I'm so sick of it sometimes I want to kill myself I try to control myself alot but they all of a sudden pop up in my head and I start hating myself and want to kill myself.
I did 2 Khatme Quraan this Ramadan but with all the bad Wasawis kept coming in my head what should I do...?
I would kill myself if this doesn't stop... I'm not an evil person; My family even thinks I'm an angelic soul since I do ibadat a lot, but I can't enjoy my Ibadat due to this problem
I don't even have the satisfaction of my ibadat getting accepted by Allah or satisfaction that my prayers would be answered what am I supposed to do?
May Allah Send death upon me and may I rot in Hell & Qabar for the bad things my mind & heart think this could be my only punishment I want to die and rot in hell