I am 13 years old, and a girl.
I used to masturbate, I repented and I really regret doing those things. Ever since I quit masturbating, I felt a little better but I was still worried about the consequences.
I started to ejaculate almost everyday and since ejaculation is haram, I became so afraid, I started crying because I couldn't control my ejaculation. Yesterday, I closed my eyes and said 'Allah please help me stop ejaculating. I want to be a good muslim. Ameen'
But it didn't work.
I keep ejaculating out of nowhere, even though I haven't masturbated. I feel like Allah will never accept my wudu, ghusl, dua, and prayer because I feel like my ejaculation is going to interrupt.
Is it normal to be ejaculating like this? Will it ever end? I don't want to go to hell, please help!