I recently converted to Islam. I was born a Muslim but stopped being one for a few years, and now I am again. I’m praying again, reading the Quran sometimes, and trying my best not to sin. This might sound bad, but I don’t feel connected to Allah anymore like I did when I wanted to become a Muslim again. I feel sad and empty lately, maybe cause of things going on in my personal life but I’m not sure. Of course, I still want to be a Muslim but I don’t understand why I feel like this. Does this mean Allah isn’t listening to me or He doesn’t care?
Imaan (faith) increases and decreases all the time. Even the best of the worshippers sometimes become lethargic in terms of praying on time, controlling their tongues and limbs from sinning etc. Never give up. Increase listening to the Quran. Say plenty of Istiqfaar. Seek the company of friends who are connected to Mosque and seeking knowledge.
"Say; O my Servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah; for Allah forgives all sins; for He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful." -- Quran 39:53
Insha Allah that feeling will be replaced by joy and exerted effort to get closer to Allah.
"Those who believe, and whose hearts find satisfaction in the remembrance of Allah; for without doubt in the remembrance of Allah do hearts find satisfaction." -- Quran 13:28
"And those who strive in Our (cause),- We will certainly guide them to our Paths; For verily Allah is with those who do right." -- Quran 29:69