My question is I have committed zina while i was separated from my husband but i am back with husband because we have kids and i never thought im going to get back with my husband, i regret so much by committing sin, i am regretting that i made my marriage dirty bu doing such an act thats is haram in islam and is a Kabira gunna, i made mistake and i never though i could do something like this but i was lost and confused I ask Allah pak for forgiveness and i offer 5 times salah for Allah to forgive me and make me good muslima,
i feel guilty that i should not be with my husband now because i have committed zinna unknowingly that il get back with my husband and now i am not forgiving myslef when i go near him as my guilt does not let me have relationship with my husband so i am having so many thoughts of leaving my husband because of my sin, but then i cant do that either because my children will be without dad,
Please advice me what to do i do not want to leave my husband, as i have realised that without my husband i have no life and no happiness we were separated due to his family was causing issues and he was bot supporting me and was giving his familys side. JazakAllah