I have been interested in a girl I met in my university. I wanted to ask for her hand in marriage but she told me she was already engaged to someone from her family (although she was interested in me but the family had already decided it for her through istikhara and she doesn't want to disappoint them).
Over 3 years have passed but we still remain interested in each other, and for some reason or the other she couldn't get married to his fiance either due to some accident or financial problems or no holidays from job, as well as the fiance's reluctance to marry "so early" as he mentioned at the start to her.
I have been making dua to Allah for blessing me with her, and I've always felt agitated of what might happen if she would get married how would I live with myself etc. I cannot do anything however unless she asks her parents to talk to me, which she is scared to do because of her family and also because when her family did istikhara for the current fiance it seemed positive, even though every time some barrier appears between them in marriage.
I decided to do an istikhara myself on whether I should keep making dua for her hand in marriage, and since I am helpless in this matter right now that's all I can do for now. After a few days, the agitation I had of losing her went away, but I still am inclined to make dua for marrying her and in my heart feel that she will contact me soon IA if I keep making dua.
I still have 2 days left of my 7 in istikhara, but I am unsure whether this is a positive sign or a negative sign for me to pursue for her marriage. I feel relatively calm and keep making dua for her hand but at the same time feel what if it's a negative sign and I might be wrong in making dua?