I am a 19 year old man in college in America. I have been addicted to masturbation since I was 11 years old, and have tried so much to stop it. I am currently attempting to see if I can find anyone to marry. About two weeks ago, I saw a very beautiful Muslim woman and told myself that I would give up masturbation to get either that woman or some one like her to marry me. Hence, I made a deal with Allah that I will not masturbate and will become much more religious, and in exchange He will give me a beautiful and pious woman to marry. I changed so much in the past two weeks and have become much better, praying tahajjud for an hour every night and not masturbating at all, but today I accidentally did something that caused me to masturbate unintentionally and I am so upset. What do I do? Does this mean that Allah will not give me a woman to marry because I accidentally broke the promise? Can I continue with this promise and ask Allah to overlook and forgive this one mistake? Is everything I did useless now? Please help me!