I am really ashamed asking this, but as a girl growing up boy-girl relationships have always been a no-no. I don't even talk much to guys, unless necessary. Upon encountering romance - TV, movies, books, - I always rolled my eyes because I hated romance, seemed too stupid, dumb to me.
Then I read a book where two guys feel you know in love and I thought it was the first time I did not want to continue to see what happened - I though the mm couple was cute. Now I always think they are cute? I am a girl so naturally I dislike lesbians and stuff, but ....ugh.
I wish I could be disgusted by them but I am addicted, not wholly, to gay books [Only YA stuff, not any uter haram erotic stuff, ew] . I've vowed never again to seek out a gay book but if I see two gay guys, I still think Awww. Please help!