I am 26 years old, and I married for 4 years. My husband has a problem in bed, and his reports also suggest that he can't produce enough amount of semen due to his habits. For 2 years, we tried our best, but all in vain. One day my husband tried something different on bed with me. He tied me, and blindfolded me then he played with me, and inserted it into me.
During the act, he ejaculated many times inside of me. Then later, my blindfold was removed, and I was surprised to see it was my husband's cousin. I was motionless, because I was in shock after some time when I regained myself. I pushed him with all my strength, but all in vain. After sometime, I gave up so he ejaculated once again. I was very angry that I was not aware of this.
My question is, when I was blindfolded, I never knew that it was someone else, but when blindfold was removed, I was motionless due to shock, but when I pushed him with all my strength and failed, I eventually let him in after all the struggle.
Am I punishable for the zina? My husband was very desperate to get a child, and he never had any bad lusty intentions. All he did was for a child, how will he repent if I forgive him totally? Now that I have a child because of this incident, I am keeping the child anyway, but what to do I if I want a child again from his cousin? Is there any legal way in Islamic law? Or should I marry him to do so?