I am a 16 year old Muslim boy. I discovered masturbation at the end of my 7th grade and have been addicted to it since then. I didn’t know it was Haraam. One day, I read an article about it and really got shocked and I stopped doing it for about a week and a half, but then I did it again unable to control myself. I couldn’t talk about it to anyone as it is so embarrassing. I always try to control it, but I fail. It just gets me depressed all the time when I think about the punishment I am going to get. I apologise to Allah when I pray but I end up doing it. I just couldn’t stop it.
After I masturbate, I observe that it affects my studies; I can't focus on my lessons. I was a bright student up until when I was in my 7th grade, and now I'm in my 10th grade I am the weakest in my class. I am going to face my board examinations in March and I couldn’t concentrate on my studies. I wish I could get the best remedy in Islam.