My husband and his family deceived me on many levels before we got married. Before I married him he had a severe case of cancer, which reached his bones and organs. It was also his understanding that he possibly could not procure children. I, however, did get pregnant and have children with him. He lied to me about the many symptoms and scars he had, but then told me later on that he had cancer after we were married, because he started to feel ill. We have been married for several years, his health is always troubling him, and I have to bear the burden with him. We don't have a normal marital relationship and it is difficult for him to satisfy me in general. I have been suffering for years, but am too ashamed to leave him and feel a sense of duty to him and my children.
I am not happy and I am afraid to fall into sin because I feel cheated, as well as unhappy in general for many reasons. Another point I would like to make is that some of the verbal (not in marriage contract) conditions that were agreed upon, like me completing my education, were not fulfilled even though we have the time and money. Should I stay patient or should I put myself at ease? Are these conditions for a divorce or do these things nullify the marriage in the first place. I feel other than our children, there is no baraka (blessing) in our marriage.