Recently, it occurred to me that almost every religion will promise its followers heaven. I came under the impression that religion may be a psychological shroud that covers the eyes of humans, but could not come to a conclusion of what happens after death.
For some reason, I am compelled to believe in Islam. I feel that it is more than a psychological mirage, and after searching into myself, I still feel compelled to follow Islam. I have never worshipped any other god or being other than Allah, this was merely a soul searching quest.
I am sure I have not committed shirk, but I am concerned if this sway in belief has caused me to become a murtad (an apostate).
Have I unknowingly committed riddah, even though I did not intend to?