I am 17 years old girl and born Muslim. When I was a round five years old a terrible thing happened to me, I was raped by my cousin, and he was between 18-20 years when this happened. I have met him several times after it happened, and I think I am going to meet him again. I haven't told anyone about it, I feel I am guilty in some way. how do I move on I know everything happens in the will of god it is hard for me to put this in the past and move on. I always put trust in god but it is always in my mind, I am trying to be a good Muslim. I kindly appreciate some advice from you.
Edit: I live far away from my home land, and when I and my family visiting my home land, he will be there because he is my cousin. that's what I meant by that I'm going to see him again if it was for me I would never see him again.